open house......

another school function last night, but for once, it wasn't mine....... one of those *social* events where parents come to the classroom, chat w. the teacher,  and check out all the really cool work the students have put together...... you know, aka: open house.....  had never been to an open house before [at least as a *parent*]...... was invited, was a little nervous, fit right in, and had a great time.....  actually spent some time tonight thinking about it.... 

i felt so comfortable after we got there, and i thank Him for that..... he has a way of easing my anxiety, making me feel secure........ but it was more than that...... you see, the thing that touched me the most was that i was sincerely invited.......  invited because He wanted me to share the experience with him, and becuz the lil guy didn't mind....... yeah, pretty cool; he didn't mind.........

you see, i'm the new g/f, and sometimes we are not quite accepted into the *club*, whether if be with *adults* or kids........ so i'm trying really hard not too overstep their personal boundries, or their boundries w. dad....... sometimes its hard; i'm a mom, and moms just sometimes do what comes natural...... but as i was lying in bed last night, smiling to myself at the fun we shared, i made a promise to myself....... don't spook 'em, tread carefully w. these precious boyz and gurl, let them know i love 'em, but not make them feel uncomfortable...... as much as i love their dad [and GD knows i love Him], they are the important ones...... they are the ones who need to be *okay* with me......... okay with me on their own, and not becuz they feel they have to....... it's that simple....... 

i'm in love;  i have a beautiful human being by my side who just so happens to have wonderfully, amazing kids, and i can't wait to grow old with all of them.........