excited, yet anxious....

tomorrow's a big day.... my Boyz are arriving tomorrow morning to spend a couple of weeks with Mom.... it's always a grand time, and we always manage to make the best of our time together; they are so much more fun as they get older [15.5, 14 & 12.75].  not that they weren't *fun* when they were younger, it's just that they're more *fun* now.  

my number 1 has his driver's permit, so it will be fun, if not a little frightening, to have him drive around the neighborhood.  their dad told me today that our Son doesn't get too overly excited about driving [unlike when I got my permit], but i think he's just a little uncomfortable driving their big truck compared to the compact he learned on.  either way, i'll white knuckle it and give him some *motherly* support on the road.

got be at LAX by 0800 hours which means i finally have to get up early and get moving before my usual wake-up call [Wollf seems to find this *entertaining*]... might even have company on the road down as Lil'Wolfie wants to come along..... maybe i'll let him sleep in; he's a growing young Cub and will need his rest with 3 new boyz in the Lair.   

as much as i Love spending time with the Boyz, i'm always a little anxious.  isn't easy being being a *part-time* Mom, and it usually takes all of us awhile to get reacquainted with each other... they get irritated with me & the way i do things and expect things of them [it's a little lax @ home], and i suppose i get a little miffed back; but they're boyz and they're mine, and we always seem to come out on top of the World.... that is until they have to go home...

i try not to think about that when they're here, as it's just added anxiety, but it's always in the back of my head... i try to be strong, but when the eve of their departure comes, we are all pretty emotionally raw... it's the hardest thing to go through, and it takes its toll on me, and the boyz.... the only thing positive this time around is that i have Wollf; He Loves me and understands me, and i know that he will hold me while i cry, comfort me, and whisper in my ear that everything will okay..... you see, it will be the first time that i'll have someone that i Love in my corner to help me through the darkness that will inevitably shadow over me....

but enough about that for now..... not going to think about that part.... gonna put my energy into the time we have together, and boy oh boy are we going to have a time.  i'm so looking forward to having the Cubs & Boyz hanging at the Lair together, having a caring & loving Man by my side who i know will be a *hit* with the Boyz.... and let's not forget Uber...... my oh my, the Lair's going to be a happier place than usual..... can't wait!