rambling on & on & on........

so we've been doing STAR testing all week.... yeah, fun stuff.....NOT.... i have a gazillion - katrillion  things on my plate right now and my teensy brain feels like it's going to explode [or implode, for that matter.....now THAT would be gross].... either way, i swear i can feel the neurons firing up, just to be zapped and propelled into another dimension..... doesn't mean squat that i'm up at 0430 or that i hunker down at 2300.... there just aren't enuff hours in the day to get it all done..... 

most teachers love testing week..... if i hear "i'm getting so much work done", i'm going to *pop* someone......yeah, you get work done cuz ur in yur room testing.......me?????  nope, i'm clear across campus in this teeny dungeon of a room.....i got more done during my 15 minute *break*  than i did the whole 3 hours of testing......

picture this...... 0930..... breaker comes in to relieve me [okay, like we've only been testing 35 minutes, but sure]........out the door to *relax* in the office, remember what needs to be done, and run [rewind...... okay, not run, maybe skip.......scratch...........power walk; yeah power walk sounds good] clear to the other side of campus, cuz ya kno, i only have 15 minutes.........check on the video i'm downloading and preparing to edit from outdoor school, fix some html code, answer 3 emails, listen to this psycho parent's voicemail, and still manage to grab 2 handsful of peanut m&m's to go with my diet coke w.lime........ so what's wrong with this picture? not the m&m's and diet coke w. lime........ yet, i still got back to testing only a minute late, and proceeded to get nothing else done while testing...... *breathe*.........

i guess if i didn't obsess on *perfection* it would be ezier..... but the compulsive side kicks in, and then it truly IS all over, because otherwise it would seem like i didn't care if it didn't get all done [my way], and that just wouldn't do ...... but hey, i can't really complain, can i?  no, i thought not.......

so....... i guess i just wish there were more of those blasted hours in my day.......... either that, or my cpu processed just a little differently.......