5.26.2008

i truly believe.....

that circumstances and people come in and out of our lives, and touch us for reasons that we can't always grasp nor understand..... yes, we do have control over many of the aspects of our lives..... i'm talking about the aspects that we don't *control*.........  take love........  are you in it, are you out of it, are you complacent with it, do you know what it is, have you felt it, do you want it, can you handle it?????  love is one of those things that when it touches you, you can see your life *flash* before your eyes..... you can image the rest of your life embraced by this emotion that so many take for granted...... you're not scared, you don't run, and you don't try to understand......  

do you ever love just one person, or are you ever in love only once?  nope, i don't think so...... i have loved many times while residing on this planet Earth..... each time it's different; yet, when i look back and evaluate, i realize that there is an underlying similarity........  i have loved for the *right* reasons, as i have loved for the *wrong* reasons.......  what about loving for the sake of just loving.....  for that feeling you get deep down inside that makes you feel as if you truly belong..... not to love because you *have* to, because it's what expected of you...... but to love for the purest sake of loving another person as you love yourself......

but what about when that love fades; and folks, we all know it does......  i think the hardest part of loving someone for who they are and being *in love* is trying to understand the difference, and have the strength to make the right *decision*..... to stay, to leave, whether for financial security, family obligation, personal *want*, or simply for the sake because it's what you *should* do..... love is so simple that it's complicated....... no one ever wants to *hurt* their partner, to say good-bye because you know it's the right thing to do, but are torn up because you've just *crushed* someone's world....... 

i have had 3 times in my life that the decision to say good-bye was what i thought at the time to be the hardest most painful decision of my life....... when i acknowledged my failed marraige, when i said good-bye to my 3 beautiful sons, and more recently...... we plummet ourselves with *what ifs*....... and yet we make those difficult choices because we know we have to..... because its the fair and honorable thing to do........ so we learn to live with the pain of loss, and we overcome......

and then you open your eyes, you open your heart, and before you is the most beautiful person you have ever seen or known...... and when you look at them, you ask, where has this person been?  and i'm not talking beautiful in the sense of a 10+...... i'm talking about the inside, the fire that burns behind their eyes, the emotion that comes from their being, and engulfs you with a feeling that can't be described.......  or can it?  is it love????  i think so........ and yes, it can be scary....... the short time of knowing someone, the obvious hesitations......... but i am not afraid, i will not hide and cower...... i will be strong......no [rewind]...... i AM strong.......... and i will embrace this feeling, and i will not hang my head, i will be proud to say *yes, world, this is who i am*...... take me for that, or don't take me at all......... because i believe in love........

time for a kleenex.........

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

Uh oh

rthmcdragn said...

yeah, but don't worry about the kleenex..... it got a proper burial.......

Anonymous said...

Yur funny. that wasn't why I sent the uh oh - Fast love can be painful & short-sighted - slow love builds and remains.

My take anyway

rthmcdragn said...

yeah, i suppose it can be..... ask my folks who are still married after 42 years [3 month romance].......

*slow love*, like any *kind* of love can build and remain..... depends on the people, and what they want from the relationship...... many times *fast* love is about sex, but what if the sex is second to the mind & soul????

Anonymous said...

Depends on what is first to the mind & soul i guess. Yur folks are blessed.

rthmcdragn said...

yes, they are...... i hope to be just as blessed.

Anonymous said...

Przyjmują miłość.

Dają miłość.

One żyją.

Tak?

rthmcdragn said...

Tak.......

Całują mnie....

Trzymają mnie.....

ozwalane ja kocha was

Foxfier said...

Hey, if you're not loving, what's the point of living?

Good luck.

rthmcdragn said...

EXACTLY.... well stated! and thanks.